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[euphanasia]

I RESISTED THE TEMPTATION LONG ENOUGH!!!

I HAVE A NEW CHARACTER WITH ALMOST 1500 COMMENTS, AND TWO OLDER CHARACTERS GOING THROUGH TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS.

QUESTION MEME TIME.

For Judith, Emil, and Euphy!

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[unionoftheheart]

Perifeelings, Perifeelings, rolling right along...

He is kind of having a lot of...generalized bluh and frustration. I mean seriously, people, can we do anything without hurting each other. :|a After some conversations with Mau and Allen and Mithos, he's realized that his "noooo I can't let my team hurt other people" has been gradually reformed into "I don't want Peridot to hurt anybody, including Peridot."

...because he's a keybrat and he doesn't dream small, APPARENTLY.

It's not like he has...any idea how to go about doing this, really, or the tools to fully analyze just why Peridot is...feelings jenga. Especially because right now he's emotionally exhausted and deeply depressed. But the Jabberwock game kind of rammed home that...no matter how much his first gut instinct is always going to be self-sacrifice to save others, that doesn't work for Peridot, and the times they've come home from games the happiest have been when they didn't. If in a similar situation again, he is going to push the Emerald solution hard, as he perceives that as the only possible answer to the dilemma. (And he'll be questing to fix that awkward thing with Roxas.)

But more generally than that, he's just...very :/ at his team's massive capacity to ruin each other at the drop of a hat. This is not what we want :\ why do we keep doing it :/ do we seriously want Peridot to be a greater source of stress and pain than it is comfort and happiness because that's what it feels like right now. :/ (Ven also has a somewhat skewed perspective there, because he's the only Peridot whose emotional support network is pretty much entirely off-team. Like the core People Who Make Him Feel Okay are not on team, so he doesn't approach his team to Feel Better, he approaches his team to have deredot and be supportive, on a good day, and...be made to feel worse, on a bad day.)

This isn't to say that he doesn't still love them all madly, because he does. He's just hitting a this-is-ridiculous threshold with the amount of pain and stress and trauma that Peridot generates for itself.

What about Emil?