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[euphanasia]

I RESISTED THE TEMPTATION LONG ENOUGH!!!

I HAVE A NEW CHARACTER WITH ALMOST 1500 COMMENTS, AND TWO OLDER CHARACTERS GOING THROUGH TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS.

QUESTION MEME TIME.

For Judith, Emil, and Euphy!

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SO TOPPED WITH DERE

i mean yes. They haven't had much chance to delve deeply, but their cr has been pretty fucking magical since the start. And he is one of those people that really benefits from people pursuing him and bullying him and topping him into being something like a functional human being. He's kind of bewildered, when he stops to think about it, that somebody who's clearly--at least at the moment--a civ, and optimistic and innocent, has managed to get so close so quickly. Because the other people who've done that in Aather have generally done so by registering as Fellow Survivors (this was especially the case with Kagari.) And she's clearly not--or if she turns out to be, he is going to want to choke the life out of something. There are probably some things that he may never be open about, because seriously, how does one talk rape trauma with a disney princess >.> but. All the dere.

(she maybe reminds him of his canon girlfriend a bit, who he does remember but doesn't remember actually...dating. >.> mainly in being a confident outgoing woman who topped him with dere from day 1 despite being a civ.)

We've talked Ven and Ratatosk, anything new about Ven and Emil?

[euphanasia]

A-Aww...

EMIL HAS SO MANY THINGS HE WANTS TO BRING UP TO VEN. He DOES want to talk about the kiss, but like. EVERY TIME they talk, something horrible is happening, so it just feels awkward bringing it back to something that was... relatively silly for everything else that happened with that plot. Like, "Um, hey, Ven..." And he figures that it would be kind of rude to bring it up because that's... really Ven's thing to decide if he wants to talk to him about.

Other than that, Emil just wants to cuddle Ven a lot and help him feel better, even though it's kind of obvious he's sort of falling apart himself. And when he next comes back, he's just going to... hide his head in shame. Because while he understands Ratatosk's reasoning (he won't deny that that sort of crossed his mind too), he knows that that isn't the way that Ven and Cassie want to play, and that they each have people not on Peridot they desperately want to protect.

What about from Ven's end?

[unionoftheheart]

Ven is just...so fucking worried about him right now, I can't even. So the only real thing stopping him from running off in the hail after his squirrel is the uncertainty of who he'd find, because he's not really going to be capable of dealing with Ratatosk coherently until he has a chance to cling to Emil for a while. (And the OOC knowledge that he's still Ratatosk, but well. :x)

He wants to bring up the whole kissing thing, too, but, well, TIMING. All romantic shenanigans on hold until no longer a total wreck.

But yeah basically, once Emil shows up again, Ven isn't going to let go of him for a while. >.> And there's a lot of stuff to talk about, but mostly, must love on, and try to help with the whole falling apart thing.

Euphy's thoughts on Amethyst in general, so far?

[euphanasia]

I answered this one earlier, but:

AMETHYST IS FILLED WITH LYING LIARS WHO LIE. Euphy doesn't know how much, but she gets the feeling they are all hiding from feelings in one way or another. And that they are extremely dedicated to, well, Amethyst. (yan yan yan)

She also knows that they don't consider themselves very social, which is one way she differs from them, because she likes talking to people and making friends! So she will probably just go... visit the other people she wants to visit, instead of inviting them to Amethyst, out of courtesy for the rest of the team.

How is Ven feeling about Peridot right now?

[unionoftheheart]

Perifeelings, Perifeelings, rolling right along...

He is kind of having a lot of...generalized bluh and frustration. I mean seriously, people, can we do anything without hurting each other. :|a After some conversations with Mau and Allen and Mithos, he's realized that his "noooo I can't let my team hurt other people" has been gradually reformed into "I don't want Peridot to hurt anybody, including Peridot."

...because he's a keybrat and he doesn't dream small, APPARENTLY.

It's not like he has...any idea how to go about doing this, really, or the tools to fully analyze just why Peridot is...feelings jenga. Especially because right now he's emotionally exhausted and deeply depressed. But the Jabberwock game kind of rammed home that...no matter how much his first gut instinct is always going to be self-sacrifice to save others, that doesn't work for Peridot, and the times they've come home from games the happiest have been when they didn't. If in a similar situation again, he is going to push the Emerald solution hard, as he perceives that as the only possible answer to the dilemma. (And he'll be questing to fix that awkward thing with Roxas.)

But more generally than that, he's just...very :/ at his team's massive capacity to ruin each other at the drop of a hat. This is not what we want :\ why do we keep doing it :/ do we seriously want Peridot to be a greater source of stress and pain than it is comfort and happiness because that's what it feels like right now. :/ (Ven also has a somewhat skewed perspective there, because he's the only Peridot whose emotional support network is pretty much entirely off-team. Like the core People Who Make Him Feel Okay are not on team, so he doesn't approach his team to Feel Better, he approaches his team to have deredot and be supportive, on a good day, and...be made to feel worse, on a bad day.)

This isn't to say that he doesn't still love them all madly, because he does. He's just hitting a this-is-ridiculous threshold with the amount of pain and stress and trauma that Peridot generates for itself.

What about Emil?